byfirstlight's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- The fertile freak - that's me Okay. So...I'm pregnant. Almost 5 weeks, it turns out. My due date is December 31st. How COOL is that? I could have a New Year's baby!! I'd be on the news and everything! (note to self: cake on the warpaint on December 31st just in case) This doesn't feel real yet. Although, last year when I was this pregnant it didn't feel real either. Pregnant. Did I just say that? Wow. WOW. I shouldn't be so astonished. I mean, I've been through this once before. Right? But I'm shocked. And excited. I've got butterflies in my stomach. It refuses to sink in. I'm having a baby? Again? Wow. Still astonished here, folks. If you haven't guessed yet, this wasn't planned. I had some problems with the patch. Problems meaning I flaked out and forgot to put it back on the week after my period. Oops. I must be freakishly insanely fertile, though, because we didn't get it on a whole lot in April. I've been so sick and miserable that mostly I went to bed without getting any. AND. I had a yeast infection the week I was ovulating (i know, tmi), so there was no sex that week. See? Freakishly fertile. I'm debating what to tell family. Should I tell them it was planned? I don't want it to ever get back to this wee one that his/her conception was a "pleasant surprise". Because even though it IS a surprise, and a pleasant one at that, I'd rather they thought it was planned. Am I obsessing too much? Does it matter? Well. I just got off the phone with my mom. She didn't believe me. She kept asking me if I was pulling her leg. She didn't ask if it was planned or not, so there we go. I was worrying for nothing! Hmm. I think I'm going to go check out babycenter and look for some of those online sex predictors. Because I'm a dork like that, and last time, they all predicted girl, so maybe they'll be right again. Oh. And I'm debating whether or not to keep this diary going. Maybe I will, and just for Isabella. I want this baby to have its own special diary as well. Maybe I should move them both to my domain. What do you think? 9:31 p.m. - 05.02.03 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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